overthinking / searching

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craving that someone..like

i'll never be satisfied with cooking for just myself.

so i'll starve
getting so overwhelmed and frustrated

as if i were God waiting to say

"i woke you up..so i'm gone. i did my part"
searched for so long so my eyes have gone bad..my pupil's are turning gray
"i'm just gone wait for em to come to me"

ain't that what the quote say?
over analyzing every second with you

cause iono what i'm getting myself into..cause

ima girl.. it's what we do
...but i ain't sweating you ;)
so i steer far from idle daydreams of you..

easily losing myself in my own previews.

not thinking to ask you for the director's cut
my desires depend on you quite much.

only cause you've become that option that outweighs others
but we'n need to dwell on this any longer
just delivering something for you to ponder

know that a love like mines, you won't run across on the daily
and although i'm wanting you like crazy..that doesn't mean you're any good for me
or that i'm any good for you
that just means we're acting on our right now
stuck on questions and statements like
"what you wanna do? i'm waiting on you"
cool
fact still remains that we gotta admit when we'n ready
and on top of that ion think you're strong enough for me
you gotta know when you're in a different league
cause we're wearing different colors
some things weighing out more than others
and i'm thinking some things overr
saying "Lord, i'm trying to stop asking You for the same confirmation

but my vision has gotten cloudy. cause i'm

slick wrapped up in what this young man could fulfill for me physically..

cause we ain't there spiritually.."
all i ask is that when you look at me, that you understand me
respect that patience is all i can offer you..and all you can offer me
and when it boils down to it, niggas gone say what they please
but i'd rather defend something worth valuing
i never wanna be the fool fighting for what's unclean
are you following me?

i have been told i'm "too deep"..

another version of shallow that translates to overthinking...
but i'm a girl. sue me

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