to be willing...

lately i've been trying to be as available to Christ as i can...

i had an epiphany the other day - i have been dwelling in self-rightousness
ain't it crazy what spirits your insecurities will allow to dwell in you?
ain't it crazy how pride will form you into a puppet ...without your knowing?

i've been trying so hard... so hard to live the Christian life.
following rules, letting go of things and people, periodically fasting, etc
but God checks your motives and your heart..so in order to know if you're truly a soldier FOR THE LORD and not for SELF, always ask yourself, IN EVERYTHING YOU DO, am i glorifying self of the Lord? am i being about my Father's business or my business? do i love God or am i stuck in religion?

when you have a relationship with Christ.. you learn so much about you..He reveals who you TRULY are to yourself. how else would we be able to confront those "things" and rebuke them in His name if we weren't cognizant of them? and at the same time, you learn of the God that you serve and the many promises He's given on the jounrney of denying self.

i'm learning how to apply scripture to my life through prayer... i told God i want to be a prayer warrior! as silly as it sounds, sometimes i am nervous when it comes to prayer...like i think to myself "Lord, i don't know what to say at times..and i don't want to say anything wrong, you know?"
i've actually let my insecurities stop me from praying for people.. :/

all i can say is that...i'm trying. and even with the many stain of iniquities God still DESIRES me..still uses me..still sees WORTH when He looks at me.. and it is AMAZING.

it starts with what you believe.
the next step is to be willing...

HAPPY RESURRECTION SUNDAY!