one of those thinking moments

good morning:)

i am lying awake thinking of...maturity. what is your level of maturity?
Pastor AD says growing up and maturing are two different things, two totally different meanings.. I AGREE.

i've had so much planned in my head.. so much i want to do, so much i thought i needed to do, things that'll be my stepping stool for each level, etc

etc

but then i started thinking, "tityana, what about the present you? are you ready for everything God truly has in store for you? it's not about what you have planned for yourself.. but what He has planned for you. and although you have desires flowing from your heart, the delay may be for your own good. after all, He does come right on time"

^______^

(^ that's my *spongebob silly face*)

i've been thinking about so much and.. i have a habit of thinking a plan alllll the way out.. i mean visualizing it, involving other people.. but it never leaves my mind.

and you can say all day what you want to happen, what you're looking forward to, what you're speaking in faith.. but EVERYTHING involves work. or it's as good as dead.

how many times have you had just the best idea in the world (of course to you it is!) and immediately after you thought about it.. you just... sat there.. until.. it... f a d e d ..?

timing and work!

TIMING AND WORK!

and of course faith:)

i'm back at school (my sophomore year:) 

i haven't been writing too much

:/

even when i tell myself "my girl, what you waiting on? WRITE ALREADY!!!" it just doesn't happen.

i go through these spells where i won't write for months at a time.. or i'll start a piece and finish it months later.. i don't know. i don't know how to look at those periods.

but my passion still stands.

i am a writer.

i am still publishing my first poetry book.

i still have a book waiting for me to finish the contents.

i still have more words that are begging for a pattern and a scheme.

I AM A WRITER.

=)

my problem is.. i wanna rush EVERYTHING. but i can't do that. some things i have to let fall into place and be mentally and spiritually prepared for.

i'm on my Father's time.

and we all know He may not come when you want Him, but He'll be there right on time.

thank you. : )